_perlu ke aku malu?? _

Perlu ke aku malu?? Malu cbb pe?? Na taw?? Haha.. malu cbb aku ni seorang repeater..serious sgt aku malu gler ble msok klaz bdak part 2 tu.. they seem so intelligent,bringht,active and confident more than me . . n make me like I’m so dumb,lose confident,no smart..kesian nye aku ni.. n a bit annoying when they no the answer if lecturer ask us..cbb dowg reti na jwb..huhu.. aku dah lama tak masok klaz tu.. so next week ade la aku msok.. ermm,bez la jugak b’cause the lecturer so sporting..she still single..i thought she was married..haha..being a repeater mmg ta bez..tak g klaz sme2 with frend.. pastu ttiba frend ask me “ko dah bce bi0 ??” ermm.. n I said “ aku kn repeat “ with embrassing face . . kenkadang ase marah gak ble dowg tanye cmtu kn..n today(31 July 2012) u know what?? Arini budak bio de test..n aku of kos la ta bce bku.. n one of my frend said “untung la ami ta yah bce bio..” ermm,aku ase malu ade.. ase mara ade. . ase na nanges p0n ade.. tu na peril owg ke ape ek?? I tak boleh filter lam otak I ni.. tp na wat cmne.. frend aku tu kejap nyanyok.. pastu ok laa..hehe..tp as a MYA MIDDLETON . . A VERY UNDERSTANDING GIRL.. aku maafkan kowang . . mmg kecik aty la sket but mya phm.. sometimes we as person mmg kenkadang perlu dimalukan kerana ia menunjukkn kelemahan dri kita n therefore we must fight to cope our disadvantage n the product is we will be more HEBAT than other..hahahaa.. lupe plak HEBAT in englishh.. ==’’  tapi tu la kn,aku ni mmg tade confident lgsung dalam dri sndri.. aku mula sedar yg aku ni confident not in right time..mksud mya mcm confident pada mse yg slah seperti mnyanyi di dalam bilik kuat2.. buat bnde yg tak faedahh. Astagfirullahhala’zim . . . . mya ase cedey ngn dri sndri..  I’m freak . . tapi LIFE MUST GO ON.. ayat lecturer physic . . ENCIK NADZAM. . . i like the way he taught us . . so sekarang aku kena n need to be MORE CONFIDENT… tulis kat sni mmg senang . . cer ko buat ?? hahaha . . aku tak confident when I’m doing it alone . . all my frend in group tade yg repeat bi0logy sooo I rasa awkward when I’m alone.. mya mmg ta bese alone.. serious ckp.. when I;m alone I feel like everybody want to leave.. maybe it so childish but that is who I am..  aku nak sgt ad ease confident mcm owg confident kat luar sne tu.. ??? phm taa..hehe . . ckp sal confident ni mmg aku tabet spring la kat sowg abg repeat klaz calculus ni.. cbb pe?? Dye tak malu tok jwb soalan kat depan kelaz eventhough everyone know he is repeater . . mya mmg tabet spring kat abg tuu . . serious . . no doubt..hehe.. erm dah la..malaz na merepek pnjang2.. in conclusion LIFE MUST GO ON !!! ^__^

_i'm a bz gurl_

mya bz?? bz la sgt ... hahahaha.. bole la than bz nyer .. jge budak2 kat lam umah ney .. penat kot jge dowg .. nanges laa.. na mkn laa.. na kencing laa.. ishhhhhhh !!!!! hehehe ... tapi syok pe jge dowg .. ikhlas ney ... hehehe ... adek mya yg kila tu dah p0n msok utm at kL ... mya rindu dye ... pg2 cam ni dye dah jge g jge budak2 tu ... ngn bel0m mndynyer ... hahahahaa.. mya ske usik dye.. lau mya usik dye juz mara jew... lau ngn adek len .. lau men pukul2 ... selalu kne hentam alek ... hehehee.. mya ske usik owg .. ngn ibu p0n slalu kne usik ngn myaa ... hehehe ..cian my mother ... kputusan kolej lom dpt ag.. hmmm.. ta mau la dok luaq ... susah ... mmg la stu ari kne gak dok luaq ... tapi mya tanak seawal ini ... hmmm ...hope dpt laaaa kolej tu.. penat2 mya cari stiker taw!!! hehehe ... pastu pg ney lak mya lupa password ... nseb bek igt td .. ok lah.. t la mya p0st ag.. hehehee ... love y'all !!!

_ke p0p_

k-pop!!! k-pop!!! k-p0p!!!

rakyat malysia da gler ngn menatang ney...hehee..

actually mya cter sal bnde len taw tonite..

tapi entah npe ttiba je ase myampah at owg yg gler k-p0p ney...

cer cter at mya pe bez sesangat ngn k-pop tuhh...

mya mmg panazz je aritu...nga syok2 dok at blik tb tgk cter..de s0wg chikar00 ney sedap tgn dye je tukar channel len...

igt bez la k0t cter yang dye na tukar...

tgk2 dye tkar k-pop hitz at hitz tv...

perggghhhh!!!!mmg bengang la mya...

ape la bez sgt ngn k-p0p tu...

kowang paham ke maksud lagu yg d0wang melalak tuuu haaa???

bajet pandai menari ngn wat muke "cute" face la konon eekkk...

ingat mya heran ke ngn dancing kowang tu...

at malaysia ite de HMC PHLOW ar beb..lagi p0wer dr d0wang tu..

yang mya TAK BOLEH BLAH tu grup boy sume pakat2 cam style gegurl...

lagi t0mey dr gurl p0n ade gak..hahahaa...mya p0n da ta reti tgk yg mne laki..yg mne p0mpan...0MG!!!!

na kata sore dowang cedap...tak de la sgt...

sore nyaring..saket telinga dengar...

mya mmg pelik owg yg suke k-pop ney...

lau yang fanatik gler tu lagi terok...

nme2 setiap ahli grup tuu dye igt...nme timangan p0n taw gak...

aje ngan terror....==''

dok hafal sume lagu k-pop...

tapi satu maksud p0n ta taw...

hahahahaha....lawak2....

lau nak jadi fanatik tu..

jadi fanatik yg betol2...

belajar bahasa korea tuu..kenal korea tu camne...pe budaya dowg...

ney baru digelar fanatik korea yang perlu dihormati...

jgn jd fanatik korea yg owang ase na muntah tgk kowang nyanyi lgu korea yg kowang sendiri tak paham tuuu....

adoyaiiii....

tapi satu je yang mya ta paham ngn rakyat malaysia ney...

malaysian are very easily to influence...

cedey arr i~

kowang tak penah nak explore lgu China ngn Tamil yg ade at malaysia ney..

kowang suke explore lgu pendatang asing...

come on la beb!!!!

jgn nak terlalu advance sangat laaa...

maju kan lagu2 di malaysia ney dulu...

ok...paham tak pe mya berleter ney???

hahahahahaha....

conclusionnyer....

nak jd fanatik tu bole...TAPI jgn na over lak...

pastu bangga lah ngn lagu tempatan ite ney haaa...

explore pr0duct malaysia...taw!!!

hahahaha...

last skali na ckp..

NO MUSIC....NO LIVE..

PEACE Y'ALL!!!!!!!!

_semester 2_

finally...semester 2 mya pon berakhir...hehehe..sonok pulak..jgn na seronok je..ko mya jgn na sronok lbey2 sblom exam result kuar...mcm owg gler ckp sowg2 lak..hehe..tapi kann..semester ni ase kejaaaaappp sgt..tup tap tup tap..da final exam...tup tap tup tap..da kawin..hahahha..gatai eh..mcm ta cye lak..time goes so faster..penat mya na kejar...hehe..TAPI sems ni la sems yg byk bg mya happy..cedey...pgalaman...cabaran...dugaan..hahaha..ayat ta b0le blah..tapi mya da berjaya buat dgn ksungguhan..ketabahan...keyakinan...hahhahaa...ble mse mya pndai wat ayat cmney ney..ad0yai..hehe...mya start dengan semester ni dgn status SOLO BUT AVAILABLE..hehe..mya da jd janda..haha..break dgn Adil Ashraff...sumpah mya ckp mya ta ase cedey lgsung mse break tu..maybe dia bukan milik mya...hehe..cedey sat...uuwwwaaaa!!!!tapi satu je yg wat mya cam ase na lempang dye cbb dye bg byk harapan kat mya...LU CAKAP MCM ANJING!!!haha..tapi mya da lpe sume mende BODOH tu..hehe...so now mya nga cari new guy..hehe..nantikan kemunculan dia...weeee~ mya jugak da lepasi saat2 buat experiment chemiz sowg2....no instrument yg pecah ok???hehe...bez sangat wat experiment sowg2...so skang mya da terror wat experiment...LU JGN MEN2 SAMA GUA...haha...wat experiment je yg bez...wat report yang ase na pengsan tuu..TA SKE WAT REPORT...beside that,semester ni jugak mya jadi "PEMBURU STIKER KOLEJ"...hehe...pergi di mna sja stiker berada...hahahaaa...penat kot..solat maghrib mst at PI...jln kaki ngn jaohnye...tapi mya ikhlaz taw...hehe...so b0le kata  byk la jugak stiker yg dikumpul..arap2 next sems dpt dok kolej ag...AMIN...selain dr tu gak,mya da timba byk sgt pengalaman dalam pementasan TEATER...mya tak jadi pelakoonn(*tensiontadptjdplakon) tapi mya jadi pengurus set&prop ngn sbagai penari twist taw...amekkaw..hahaha...ase na nanges+happy ble pementasan teater tu berjalan ngn smoothnyer..hahahaaha..byk memory manis n pahit yg mya lalui bersama grup mya..t mya cter sal teater mya at p0st len taw...coming so0n!!!!heheh...actually byk ag memory semester 2 ney...hehehe...whatever is mya da wat terbaek t0k semester ney..fullst0p!!! hehehe..mmmuuuahhhh...


_be str0ng gurl!!!_

TENSION..mya ase GIVE UP na terus pe yang mya study skang..npe la mya amek kos sc as my first option???smlm de test bio..bce je soalan...terdiam..ternganga..tergamam..tak tertulis..pe bende la dye tanyer ni..ase na cakap at lecturer.."sy rse sy dpt slah paper l0rh.."..dua ari mya na khatamkan chapter 1 ngn 2..da khatam da..dan igt..but i don no why i can't apply it on the questi0n..ase na nanges pas abeh test tu..mmg nanges p0n..trus alek bilik..n kol my mummy..n i said.."ibu,kakyong ta b0le na carry"..i know my mum would be suprise n upset..tp mya ase mmg ta b0le bawak..sc can't accept me..n i can't accept sc...
ibu ckp swoh wat discussi0n..tp mya ta b0le wat disccussi0n..mya lbey ske study sndri..mya trus off call..ase ta mau dgr pe yg mummy ckp..mya menangis..ase ta b0le na hadapi sume ni..mya ase cmni cbb mya f0bia dgn kputusan last sems..mya ta repeat..mya na lulus cam owg len...mya da wat tebaek tok dpt yg terbaek..mya da doa kt Allah supaye tlong mya..mya tana tambah ag stu repeat..then ayah call mya..dye tnyer kenape???dye bg byk m0tivati0n kat mya..dye ckp mya ANAK HARAPAN dye..menangis mya ble ayah ckp cmtu..mya HARAPAN keluarga..ayah cakap DYE SAYANG MYA..dye tana mya cepat putus asa..dye na mya tabah hadapi sume ni..dye tw mya cekal owgnye..YA ALLAH,TOLONG AKU HADAPI SUME DUGAAN MU..CEKALKANLAH HATIKU INI..mya menangis ble ayah cakap camtu..MEMANG..cita2 mya na tengok ayah ngn ibu bahagia dgn kejayaan mya..mya na balaz balek pe jasa yang dah di0rang bagi kat mya..mya arap mya ley bagi KEJAYAAN tu sebel0m mereka pergi..lau bole,mya na mya yang pergi dulu sebelom parent mya pergi..ta sebelom tu..mya na bagi mereka HAPPY dgn kejayaan mya..mya na mereka BANGGA dgn kejayaan mya..pastu..baru mya na mati..mya tana parent mya pergi dulu..mya na 'pergi' dalam pelukan ibu mya..tu cita2 mya yang dah lme mya simpan..mya taw mya kne banyak kan wat perkara yang boleh wat mya tenang lam kubur tu nanti..mya na BAHAGIAKAN parents mya!!!!terima kaseh kat parents mya cbb layan macam2 kerenah mya ni..mya byk sshkan mereka..
I LOVE U AYAH..
I LOVE U IBU..

_im so tension!!!_

...mke tension..

mya tension cgt!!!
mne ta nyer,mya pnyer fb ta ley bkk..
dye ta bole na log in..
hmmm...
uuuuwaaaaaaa!!!!!!
pnat2 mya kumpul fwen mya..
da 300 above..
da la ssh na cri fwen ni..
mya da wat fb bwu..
tp mya na yg tu jgk..
ase na nanges lorh...
last mya msok mse na msokkn video from utube..
lgu pumped up kicks..
ni lgu feveret mya..
heheheheheheehehe...
hmmm...
mya na mara mark zukgen mnde nta..
yg wat fb tuh..
da la nme pelik..mmg na kne mara ngn mya..
huhuhuhu..

_mse kecik2_

mya ase the most happy time in my life when mya kecik2 sblom msok skola..mmg waktu tu mya ase mmg bez cgt..mse tu mya de 2 adk..kila ngn amat..kteowg mmg rpat gler..kteowg jarang gdoh..mse tu kteowg lam kategori miskin la..then ayah na wat bussiness..ayah wt bussiness khemah owg kawin..mya igt ag,ayah kumpul sume ketas2 tbuang kt lam poli pastu ayah jual tok dpt duit..ayh wt cmtu cbb ayah tade wit na beli besi ngn kanvas tu..so ayah kne wt cmtu..mya igt gler,kt blakang uma,btimbun ketas..tanah pon ta nmpk..hehehe..pastu hasrat ayah pon tcpai..ayah da de lori..pas ayah wat bussiness ni,kteowg hidop sng la..lau kowg na tw,ke mne je mya ngn fmily g jln kn,mst kteowg nek lori tu..hehehe..mse kecik mmg ta malu..cer tgk skang..na nek malu gler..hehehe..tp tu la lori yg mgubah khidupn kteowg..asal na jln,nek lori..g shoppin ke,mkn luar ke..hehehe..mya slalu dok tgh sblah ayah..ibu dok tepi riba kila..lau de amat,amat slalu bdiri je..hehehe..emmm,ayah mya ni jnis ske brg branded..mya igt lg,dye beli kn mya beg tok g tadika jenama disney original pnyer..mahal cgt..n cmpai skang mya smpan beg tu tok wat knangan..beg mya gmbr pooh..beg kila lak gmbr garfield..comey beg mya!!!mya syg cgt beg tu..bju rye of course jenama kiki lala..mmg branded la..mya ske time ni..snang cter,sume yg kteowg na mst dpt..beznyer waktu tu..ase na ulang alek..skarang,fmly mya tetap eppy lau kenkadang tu cam tade wit..hehehe..ayah mya still ngn bussiness tu smpai skang..n alhamdulillah,ayah byk gak dpt tempahan..alhamdulillah sgt2!!!pe yg pling pnting,fmily sumenyer happy..:)